Thursday, May 21, 2009

Happy post?! Perharps other days bah.. all i know is i felt worst than a piece of shit ystd. I'm sorry to someone. i know my temper was bad. i know i vanting it somehow on u. but. who ever come to me and ask: " how's ur day!?" & Yet i felt bad again. realising i had not done my job well.. i failed to be or to do tons of stuffs. what the matter with me?! i dont know. i onli wan someone to be my pillar, to hold me when times like tat.. to even tell me what can i do?!

"What have u been doing as a A_ _ _ _ _ _. With ur way of doing it, i can even advise her myself". Wow. this sentence i rmb-ed to heart. i know. i had definitely failed to do my part. but i jus felt so demoralise and depress. i'm jus the ham between burgers. yet no one tries to be cooperative. no words of encouragement either. No one know how bad & disappointed i feel.. no even u...cause u dont know anything...

Ya. how does everyone see me as?! i am not a superman. i need a break yet somethings jus ask me to kip it going. can i do it? i'm asking myself. $$ is such a sensitive issue. how am i going hand over without some information?! there is jus so much things going thru my brain & i am goin to be out of breath soon? i jus need someone to encourage me, advise me, hear me out..

humans being are complicated. sometimes i jus hope that u could tell me directly on how much i have offended u.. or ur feeling.. how much u felt hurt instead of rubbing me down.. pushing me to the end.. making me at a lost end.

i have decided not to be the first to solve this problem between us. cause i'm realli worned out. what i can say is, its me everytime who try to make things work. although its my fault this time, but pls initiate. i'm tired. cause it's not the first time i'm teaching u abt solution to problem.. i guess u know what to do...

i'm sad, disappointed and discourage.. as much as u.

andy!

Shoutout!